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Thoughts: Queen Potential

Tentative Title: “Queen Potential”


When I first laid eyes on her, I didn’t understand
My attraction to the woman before me
We didn’t exchange a word
I knew nothing of her
But there was something about her
I had to approach her…

Fast Forward
We talk all the time
She’s the first voice I hear in the morning
She’s the last voice I hear before I sleep
The more we talk, the more I wonder...
Is she…the Queen?
We went from casual conversation
To deep intelligent mental selections
From a respect of her being
To asking God if she’s the one for me

Beautiful, intelligent, witty, goofy, godly
Strong, weak, perfection and flawed
Honesty and all
A gift for a king…

Conversations: "I ____ you..."

Tentative Title: “I ____ you…”
Christopher Bell

“I ____ you…
I ____ you so much…”


Those blanks represent the feelings I have for her, but there’s no word to describe it. I’m not in Love. I am familiar with that feeling. Those blanks represent a combination of respect, passion, lust, attraction, and admiration. I’m not in Love…far from it. It’s too soon for that. But I do like her a lot. I can look into her eyes and say everything without saying anything. There’s a possibility those blanks can be turned into Love eventually in the future. But for now…I rather for us to enjoy the season as it is. But as time continues, I know her feelings are getting deeper and deeper. Every time I speak to her. Every time I look into her eyes…I can tell. It’s a eerie feeling to know that she holds me in such high esteem. I guess I just feel a little uncomfortable knowing I can’t return those same feelings. Not yet, anyway.

My feelings for her is beyond Like
But, it’s not quite Love
The blank is more of a feeling in between
A nonexistent word
Yet a strong feeling that can’t be denied

Every time I look into her eyes
As I lay my hands on her chocolate thighs
I utter “I ____ you…”

It’s a feeling of passion
It’s beyond physical attraction
It’s a hybrid of Love and Lust
A mutual respect

It’s crazy, because I crave your Character
A lust after your Selflessness
I wanna taste your Wisdom

I enjoy making you laugh
I listen intently to your wisdom
Your wants for becoming a better woman
I love sucking your delicious lips…

Conversations: Pillowtalk

"...That's usually how it happens. Its what I like about you. I am reckless, impulsive and able to throw my inhibitions away and enjoy pure hedonism."

When she speaks...its like poetry. I couldn't do anything but pause. I was speechless. I was honored. I smiled... My mind doesn't stay offline long. It was only moments before my mind, along with my consciousness, began to reboot and turn back on. In the dark room, my mind continued its journey of tangents and thoughts. God, work, lust,dreams, women, love...the story of my life.That constant reminder of my flawed nature. Struggling to find a balance of life that's impossible yet I continue to search for it each and every day of my life. My life is filled with daily struggles with pockets of joy and momentary bliss. Don't get me wrong. I love my life. I am very blessed with a gift that inspires people. Passion runs through my veins and keeps me strong. I'm a weathered soldier, a good leader and friend. Overall, my life is quite peaceful. I'm just aware of my shortcomings as well. The shortcomings that keeps me humble and remind me...I'm no better than anyone else. I'm not a "good guy". I'm a man of morals, but still have a part of me that's cutthroat and numb. I consider myself an opportunist, a realist.

(thinking...)

(looking into her eyes...)

She knows a lot of things about me. She can see a lot of things in me. Yet, she knows nothing about me. Then again...maybe she does. Maybe she fully understands and respects me for who I am...flaws and all. Hmmm...

Thought of the Day

"Those who consistently say they have haters, usually don't have any haters at all. Its just a cry for attention."

King Dreamer