"...That's usually how it happens. Its what I like about you. I am reckless, impulsive and able to throw my inhibitions away and enjoy pure hedonism."
When she speaks...its like poetry. I couldn't do anything but pause. I was speechless. I was honored. I smiled... My mind doesn't stay offline long. It was only moments before my mind, along with my consciousness, began to reboot and turn back on. In the dark room, my mind continued its journey of tangents and thoughts. God, work, lust,dreams, women, love...the story of my life.That constant reminder of my flawed nature. Struggling to find a balance of life that's impossible yet I continue to search for it each and every day of my life. My life is filled with daily struggles with pockets of joy and momentary bliss. Don't get me wrong. I love my life. I am very blessed with a gift that inspires people. Passion runs through my veins and keeps me strong. I'm a weathered soldier, a good leader and friend. Overall, my life is quite peaceful. I'm just aware of my shortcomings as well. The shortcomings that keeps me humble and remind me...I'm no better than anyone else. I'm not a "good guy". I'm a man of morals, but still have a part of me that's cutthroat and numb. I consider myself an opportunist, a realist.
(thinking...)
(looking into her eyes...)
She knows a lot of things about me. She can see a lot of things in me. Yet, she knows nothing about me. Then again...maybe she does. Maybe she fully understands and respects me for who I am...flaws and all. Hmmm...
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Man I didn't know you had a blog....this is dope! And so true. And think it resonates with a lot of people.
C*
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